You're Running With Your Eyes Closed

It hurts the most when you see her happier with another man. How significant are you now?

2011-03-06T09:15:00.000-08:00

I have nothing to say

We.Have.Had.Enough

2011-02-22T11:30:00.000-08:00

The emotional welfare of relationships is a dangerous business. It is no longer a simple fairy tale as you age. But then again as you age, everything will inevitably become political.

The first impression is not of great importance, from what i have come to learn.

If you screw up your second impression then you're just this imperfect person now.

Tainted. Marked. Judged

Um. There's this saying that goes 'Once the paper's crumpled up it can't be perfect again'

But you take time and effort to spread the sheet and smoothen the crease to find value in this intangible affection.

At least until it is so worn out all you can see are crease lines from top to bottom.

What hope lies in anything now if it comes to that point. Change? Plead? More chances?

Why would you even want to look at yourself much less straighten up and fix your hair?

Stand in front of the mirror and give yourself a great big fat middle finger then at least you'd feel some sort of satisfaction.

Lose all forms of respect for yourself and you'll find yourself in the gutter laying there contently.

It feels like the only hope left now is to lose everything you've ever loved.

Self destruction. Suicide tendencies. Depression.

Start w yourself

Start with yourself before you handle anybody else.

Start.With.Yourself

So yeah..

2010-11-25T13:47:00.000-08:00

My sister is kept safe from potential danger, my mother is keeping headstrong against obstacles. More credit should be given for that

I have two legs to travel and two hands to maneuver, ain't that grand?

What else is there to talk about on thanksgiving.. Turkey is great but i prefer rice w it

Oh and of course your existence. There are sub categories for the definition of your beauty, of which should be self explanatory. Your ability to analyse life and the way it is ought to be. The ability to love without limits. Being strong, being the only person who makes sense when everyone else breaks down. Even when it was your turn to break down, you fixed yourself. Oh heh. Not forgetting, you're god damn hot.

I'm generic, what can you do

Second Christmas w you and it's still as surreal as ever

2010-11-24T12:38:00.000-08:00

Inadequate?

2010-11-23T11:37:00.000-08:00

My mum is in the next room and i heard her saying

" This is what i get for opening up "

Happens to everyone no?

Yes i know it's inappropriate to post this online but nobody reads this. So. It makes me look even more alone writing like anyone's reading.

Goodnight

Sometimes..

2010-11-23T11:28:00.000-08:00

It feels like we're the only ones who makes sense in this world. Actually i'm not biased, it's a fact. Ftw shall be an abbreviation for Fuck The World for this once. Peace

The Pattern

2010-11-23T11:18:00.000-08:00

December 1st and you're still in a foreign state.

We're getting older, future's so unclear. Really really, doesn't feel like it's been a year.

Happy Birthday Brittany

We Will Build a Love Nest Somewhere Only We Know

2010-06-02T11:45:00.000-07:00

I would say i have tripled the level of privacy invasion Brittany did to me

And oh i almost forgot

She is the most beautiful human being i have ever seen .

Spills

2010-05-23T12:27:00.000-07:00

Observing as the hot air ascends to the cotton ceiling , absorbing every poisonous moisture
It cleans the sky as it dies with sacrificial intentions for the greater good

Hi I'm a wallflower
I see people hide secrets for too long
I see people bearing the jagged edge for simple reasons that cannot be put to words
Misunderstood is not an overrated state of emotion for frustration
Collecting toxic in your bottle that has no soul

Hi I'm a man
I love the world and the sheep
Smile smile smile
I cover up the bad things
Polka dot houses with overgrown castles and trees greener than your heart
Sure you have done the best you can , it just won't cut it
Those three words for one person
Have you completely lost your sense of pride for empathy

I wish i could paint the picture in my head
And show you how wonderful the future will be

It is inevitable
We owe it to ourselves

Mumbling mambo jumbo again ?
What's new

Stuck In A Time So Cold , Your Tears Turn Solid As They Fall

2010-02-01T19:39:00.000-08:00

Just can't get enough of her

Sons of Adam Daughters Of Eve Have Tainted Beliefs

2010-02-01T10:14:00.000-08:00

Only so many more days till i get to come up close and personal w miss Hayley Williams
Ah yes my future wife waiting for me

So excited and i just can't hide it
Your scent will equal my oxygen :)

You Know You Really Have A Problem When You're Late For A Tardy Date

2010-02-01T05:48:00.001-08:00

Today i finally grasped the essence of the phrase ' Some things are better left unsaid '
For years i have wondered
I wanted to know
At least i thought i wanted to know

You might as well have thrown sand in my face when my back was turned
You might as well have told me i came from mars

I guess all i can do now is to absorb
Absorb , accept and love

We Are Vultures To The Bees With Their Gold

2009-09-17T09:15:00.000-07:00

Walking along , two girls approached him for directions
Delighted by their beauty he was extra helpful
Behind those masks they smiled cunningly
The aroma of perfume numbed his senses
The ladies reached in from behind him and robbed him
Oblivious to this , the happy man left those pretty faces still digesting what he had just seen
It wasn't until he sat down on his couch , sorting out his thoughts that he knew had lost something
He searched himself , head to toe
The only thing he couldn't find was his soul

Jealousy Looks Cute On You

2009-09-16T02:03:00.000-07:00

No YOU'RE going down !
Haven't you heard that failure is not by falling down , but by giving up ?
Mistakes are good because mistakes will help define you
Please do not talk down on me again , so what if i have to tilt my head up to face you ?
It doesn't work that way
You make the bed you lie in
And right now yours looks pretty deep
You have it bad boy
I feel sorry for you
You have to stop with that melancholy attitude ..

Really , What do you know ?
You're just an elevator

I Wish I Am Stronger Than The People That You Meet - Get Cape. Wear Cape. Fly

2009-09-05T03:33:00.000-07:00

Hm .
How would you know if you've changed , or grown up

Say , " Looking back , i can't believe how ridiculous were we "
Say , " I couldn't do that when i was your age either "

Both lifts are at the level , but the lift you're at graciously allows the other to open instead...
Bitch

Boys in skinny black suits and jeans , purposely unkept hair
Men in black suits pants , clean cut hair..
Grown up
Bitch

Full life , a fulfilling one
Success is sweet ,
Artificial ?
Hollow ? Maybe ?

It's a good source of glucose that drives you
At the same time lacks retension
Dependent on it , you crave constant success
Competitive , best of you , and worst

Your dignity grounds down to land level
The sea level will rise above you , just you wait

It Was When You Said I Had A Tight Grip On Your Heart

2009-08-24T01:37:00.000-07:00

Finally . . . .
They're back

Arctic Monkeys performing Crying Lightning
First single off their new album

Look at Alex go
Playing a high leveled difficulty guitar riff while singing
Talent or practice ?
Talent and practice ?

Here's a random fact ; Alex Turner never intended on being the lead singer . The group got together without a vocalist and he just volunteered . His voice didn't sound like this from day one . He had to work on it , slowly tuning it to his best .

- They are geniuses

We Need A New Direction

2009-08-19T20:52:00.000-07:00

I've been listening to Hollywood Undead
They're pretty good
Rapcore with catchy melodic choruses
Angsty , rebellious , sex & drugs lyrics
Oh and nice voices too

And now i'm starting to dig those colourful drama masks
Then i imagined what if they become street dancers
They'll be the ultimate group

How can you show affection through a dial up connection

2009-08-18T22:11:00.000-07:00

Sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole.
Just like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound.
But while you debate half empty or half full,
It slowly rises, your love is gonna drown.

- Death Cab For Cutie

Well i've been waiting on a queue ,
To bring this love struck city back to you

- Marielle

I don't know why
I can't function
In this dead end
Impossible

- Blood Red Shoes





It has been hell playing cat and mouse with cupid

Take Only What You Need From Me

2009-08-11T08:04:00.000-07:00

You will not be ridiculous in this house

They sprawled my brains all over the wall
Tip me over and spill me out
Stop pushing me to reconcile
My heart will tell me when

The idea in your head
The spice on your lips
Can never seem to get along

Write to say
Weights are away
Future tense has brought me hope
The future has a candle i could use
Do i have to be here now ?
Will you steal my rapture
And smear it across my face

The marvel of surprise moved to an angle
Shaping your next move
I'll let you try to leave an impression
Let loose your trends and fashion

Looking down on depression from up there
You are in the presence of greatness
Just pretend that you don't care

Burn Bridges And Build Walls

2009-08-10T00:50:00.000-07:00

"Hello my name is Mikey , and i look like Katie Holmes"

Watching em grow up is amazing
It's like watching a baby turn into a boy yknow
But better , without all the crying noise and such
It's peaceful nurturing

First he just lies there and whine his annoying little cat meows , eyelids still haven't the ability to open
Now he walks , runs , pounce ( mini ) , cleans himself ( lick ) , cuddles around people
All in a time frame of about a month
Have never actually witnessed anyone growing up right infront of my eyes
It's just amazing

How Could You Be So Faithless

2009-08-09T07:31:00.000-07:00

Mike : Rachel i think there's something wrong with me

Rachel : Like it's about time you noticed ! Haha

Mike : I'm not in a laughing mood alright

Rachel : Oh

Mike : Hm

Rachel : Sorry yeah . So what . Are you dying or something ?

Mike : Nah man , there's a sharp pain in my stomache

Rachel : Well have you seen a doctor ?

Mike : Yes

Rachel : And ??

Mike : Doc said that i'm fine . I don't know what's happenin to me

Rachel : Truly odd

Mike : Sometimes it hurts so bad i feel like i'm choking on gravel . My gut all in knots and
such

Rachel : Haha !

Mike : Seriously you have a twisted sense of humour

Rachel : No hear me out first . Do you feel a void in you ? Possibly the similar feeling of a
blackhole residing in the pits of your lungs ?

Mike : Now that you've mentioned it . . .

Rachel : And at times you can't even function , you'll just lay in your room all day trying to
rid of the pain ?

Mike : Yeah so where are you getting at ? Am i gonna die from this ?

Rachel : Is there something else you're not telling me recently ? Something apart from your so called illness ?

Mike : Well , there was this . . . Oh no . . You're right . . Kate . .

You said you would rather love and lost

Well then it's about time you paid your dues

Texas should meet someone like me

2009-08-05T10:22:00.000-07:00

This is where i often drown
And sink and float and sink and float

That's the most relatable way to put it yknow
Standard issue cliche magazine should inform you of that
Unless they invented a new expression

How about
So much fun during the seventy storey fall , until the fall

Or

Hanging out with the noose around your neck

Haaa
Need not tell you what the expressions represent eh
The deadly four letter word

Boy you so don't catch my drift

But The Nation's Birthday Is Not Mine

2009-08-04T06:48:00.000-07:00

88 keys , 7 chords

You can't just walk in here and lay down the truth
You can't just reach in with your hands and detach my soul
You can't just fill this room with tears then say your eyes are dry
You can't just feed me with everything i need then tell me i don't need it

Here's to those who have died and survived
Here's to those who had to let go for love
Here's to those who looked up to the sky with hope
Here's to those who defied nature

It's so funny how you can lose something you never had
It's so funny how you never knew her significance until a disaster
It's so funny how it could all work out if you could just not be a stubborn bitch for once
It's so funny how the right things tempt us to do the wrong ones

I'll see you on my hospital bed
One day , all blue and red

I'm sorry too

HAH ! Takes One To Know One

2009-07-30T23:59:00.000-07:00

Oh and when did you start having opinions ?

Speedy random questionnaire 101

How would you describe yourself ?
Argumentative prick

So what's the word of the week ?
Queer ( Because we are )

Scale from 1 to 10 , rate the month you've had
6.7

What is the best thing this month ?
BCV , JSSL , laptop and unlimited text

How many times have you ever got into a fight ?
None

Are you a hopeless romantic ?
No . I've learnt my lesson

First word that comes to mind
Miserably fluttery ( two words whatever )

You're aweful-Lee-hot

Kiss my ass , inspiration

I Am Not Addicted

2009-07-22T01:01:00.000-07:00

Lady : Oh ho we're here now to find out about a giant orange squeeze which reportedly should be located behind us
Man: Argfslmvoirkjnacvui
Lady: Yes it should be right behind us now but i just don't see it yo ~
Man: Yes
Lady: Neighhhhhhh
Man: Yes
Lady: Oh look ! Let us be checking out the eclipse instead yo ~
Man: Yes
Lady: Ohhhhh my god . That looks like that scary show called 'the ring'
Man: Yes
Lady: That ugly ghost in the show reminds me so much of my husband's mother
Man: But i am your husband !
Lady: Yes

Sorry about that
Flu does crazy things to you

And You Thought That All The Hermiones Would End Up With All The Harrys

2009-07-21T23:25:00.000-07:00

*Sneeze* *Sneeze*
Ugh man
*Sneeze* *Sneeze*
Please no more , make it stop

Here's an analogy :
A speed bump in your throat
An acorn competing for space with your Adam's Apple ( if you've got one )
A tiny imp scratching the walls of your gullet

Okay those are 3 analogies

The collective phlegm have drowned me in misery
In this case , misery does not love company

Dang it , was it the eclipse that i'm allergic to ?
Pregnant women opted to stay in , fearful of the superstitious belief in birth defects when exposed to the eclipse
I wonder what doctors would have to say about that
Isn't an eclipse like a massive world destruction kind of issue ?
That's what i heard
Sure made my imagination work overtime
Everyone just oblivious about it
And in one sweep , wiped out
I haven't even jumped to Paramore yet

You said that you would wait
I say it's just a twisted fate

You Took Me Apart And Only You Can Piece Me Back Together

2009-07-20T19:57:00.000-07:00

HAHA !
Classic ~

Where the rent is due
the rent is due

You so know it's rehearsed and yet you can't help laughing

I'm Not Depressed , Just Got Brushed By An Imaginary Love

2009-07-20T11:29:00.000-07:00

"I am so in like with you"

"You are better than any character i can create"

I am a cliche monster thirsting for a happy ending
The taste of your soul has murdered the qualities of coke
Beneath the seams you emerged
Once again you have me undone

Michelle Branch's so hot here
Much hotter than i remember her to be
I imagined happy , carefree country girl living in the city
But now i've finally come to realise . . . .
She's hot

I Randomly Try To Sleep Just So I'd Dream Of You

2009-07-19T13:10:00.000-07:00

Finally , i'm done with the dumb project i had to force myself to do
I don't even know what exactly it is about , i wasn't in school that day to get the full briefing
Some dodgy instructions from friends was all i had to count my marks on

Yeah you see there ?
I'm treating school as if it's all that important when it isn't
Math ok , focus on ze goal

I had to do a little research on weddings for that project
Wedding definition : A public proclamation of marriage by an authority figure or leader
Freaky wiki has everything

From White Weddings to Same-Sex Weddings
They call it as ' civilly united' haha

There's even a Sneak Wedding : The act of getting married without approval from family
I say shotgun you say wedding

I've also a rough idea of what the playlist looks like for my future wedding
Argh man really , seeing too much wedding materials
Now wedding sounds odd to me
Yellow too sounds weird for some reason

It's a 5am ramble
This is the first day of my life
BCV

Your Pervertic Plans To Choose Reflective Tiles For Public Toilets

2009-07-18T09:03:00.000-07:00

'I think i was blind before i I met you'

Does this world hunger of depression
Does this night sky feast on sorrow
Look into the mirror and you won't see a face
Just so if you'd like to know
She said she thought of me when Harry loved Ginny
She shows limitless discretion
My pride is blown in the wind when i'm with you

Your epic smile

Like The Prettiest Sound Waves , I Can Hear You But I Can't See You

2009-07-17T09:22:00.000-07:00

ARRRGH CYCLOPS!!

How much love have you truly experienced
Would you put a gun to your head when passion is telling you to
Will you bear no regrets as you pull the trigger
Eyes closed
Freefall

Doing well for Olevel math this year is of extreme importance
It decides my freedom and happiness for the next three years
Happily as i am , i attended a teacher help student session back at GESS
It made me realise how much of a slack i am
Slackers , oh how i used to despise their attitude
I made the one person i care for cry
I'd possess a built body and sucker punch myself in the face
Tables have turned and i seem to accumulate reasons to not like myself

I should get back home
Well
At least once i find it

Sense Decided To Ditch Me For An American Girl

2009-07-16T09:49:00.000-07:00

L et me explain

O ver ? Please anything but that
V ery very sorry about everything
E nds here , guess this is where we go our seperate ways

John tries to do everything right
Avoiding hurting anyone was what he did
Yet he gets himself in the stickiest situation possible
He had everything
And now nothing
Maybe he did deserve what he had but he feels like it was this was done on purpose
God wanted to test him , maybe
He could have handled it better , but he didn't

What am i going to do with you John
You're a helpless fool

BCV

String These Emotions And Wear It Round Your Neck

2009-07-15T12:23:00.000-07:00

You are dying my love
The only thing i wanna do is to lay in your eyes

I am crunched
How many more little pierces until i'll be running on empty
Your half hearted smile will not cover
Nobody can tell us it's over

Ok ok ok ok
So you're having your dinner with friends
All smiles all casual
You have this little voice in your head reminding you
Of how you are a sucker for a cheap thrill
Your friend suddenly dares you to pull a dine and dash
The voice in your head starts to laugh in irony
A smile forms on your lips

No one's looking
All clear

Leaving your seat
'Just hold your breath
No turning back now
Oh no someone's gonna spot us
RUN'

When you're loved
You'll glow
You'll attract many more butterflies
You pick one
What do you do with the rest ?

Now I'm laying Down My Faith

2009-07-14T11:16:00.000-07:00

Now you've done it
Everything that was ever significant is washed away
The waves have never been so moody
The skies have never called me out like you

Matthew has a slight eccentricity to his strong personality which makes him funny , which makes him loved
Alexander knows he has a brother to protect , he knows he needs to set a good example , he sometimes needs more attention

Which pre primary child would pose picking their nose if not lead by an awesome example such as myself

Daily Scoop ice cream in my hand
Daily Scoop is delicious
There's only a one and only outlet at SunsetWay
They actually show off how they make the ice cream

Really i'm just going through day by day , one at a time
I ignore the things that don't matter
But it only makes me also ignore the things that do matter
Have you still space for regret ?

This Isn't You

2009-07-05T09:07:00.000-07:00

Green Eyed Monster 101
1. jealous resentment against a rival, a person enjoying success or advantage, etc., or against another's success or advantage itself.

Success of stealing her attention
Success of taking up her time
Success of . . okay stop it

Is It Fair That Only The Fork Is Used With Both Knives And Spoons

2009-07-04T15:42:00.000-07:00

The best two dollars ever spent on tekken
Played for over an hour , challengers after challengers
Knowing you have an edge over so many people , truly is ecstacy

It's a real morale boost
Like telling a fat boy he's funny
Or a skinny girl she eats a lot

Feeling unique is a privelege you choose to keep
It's harder to grasp than you think

And honey being with you is a treasure i'm reluctant to adore
How many times must you be bitten before you learn your lesson

If i could mould all the separated feelings i have for you into one , it would fill me to the brim
It's overflowing
It's trying to be contained
It's almost restraint torture

Words can only describe so much

The Long Awaited

2009-07-03T11:39:00.000-07:00

A full blog revamp
Who am i kidding how am i to revive this dead fish

I mean . . .

What stories have i to share

:)

If it hurts , its no good

2008-07-11T08:46:00.000-07:00

And when it rains
On this side of town it touches, everything

Just say it again and mean it

We don't miss a thing
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And convinced yourself that
It's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore

I guess when you pretend long enough , you'll be it
And when you be the thing you pretend , it might be too late to turn back
Buried deep , waiting someone to help you out
If you don't try to look for a hand hard enough , you can't escape from the hell hole

So much crap so little time !

I've got to say one thing about the balestier soccer trials , its not that competitive . i thought that my school team was better . hmm . its possible that not all the best players were down but still expected more competition

Haha . all in all , i still wasn't selected . guess the coach even admited he had only 20 mins to see what we've got . eventhough its insufficient time to fully display your potential

Not bad . i had fun

Smile like you mean it

2008-06-03T10:57:00.000-07:00

Long day hectic , do you take me for a fool ?
right side right , its not as simple as you think
the thoughts are scrambling , my palms are sweating
the sweeesshh of your wand , the flick of your hair

The kid ran down the street laughing
the candy was happy it made him smile
strangers greeted each other like nothing else mattered
the sun couldnt help but grin at how well she is doing her job

the great never ending questions

2008-05-28T23:03:00.000-07:00

1. What disappoints you the most?

Myself

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?

I'll leave mr. ghiam a farewell letter and start anew england / america . where the challenges and opportunities are worth it

3. What's your favorite thing to do?

Making a kingdom out of cardboard boxes , and i'll be the queen

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?

Come on , i'm 17 , of course i think money CANNOT buy happiness . Money is important but i think there're proofs where money can't buy happiness . i've seen examples . Not trying to act mature , but i love my live . maybe when i'm 30 and starving , stealing from beggars , then i'll change my statement . For now , it'll be a no

5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?

Bill gates writing my name in his will , by accident . not that money can buy happiness or anything * looks at feet *

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?

Wahlau money again .

Not if you magically own a huge ass farm with 50 different kind of foods

7. What is your favourite body part?

I have a cute ass

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

Another money question ? O.0 such creativity

i'd donate half to the poor person who thinks he/she can survive without money . the other half to the cost of dragging paramore to singapore . practical no ?

9. What is the most embarrassing thing that happened to you recently?

I have managed to minimize the chances of embarrassment over the years . damn i miss getting embarrassed

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?

Farah ? - perky
- mature
- open minded

Or at least its the points i hope to see in her . ha-ha

11. What makes you happy?

Loud passionate music

12. What type of person do you hate the most?

The ones who remind me of myself

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?

in a mosh pit

14. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?

the ability to sing ( its a superpower considering how awful my voice is currently )

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

My mother and sister

16. What do you do when you're alone?

Study *cross fingers*

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?

the jealousy part

18. One word to describe yourself.

chameleon

19. What is your ultimate addiction?

butterflies

20. What makes a perfect bf/gf to you?

You

Flat out peak

2008-05-28T05:46:00.000-07:00

This special category of frustration has slowly sunk deep in my butt . This category of , baby-sitter giving child simple orders but somehow manage to defy you , kinda category . where you tell yourself how simple it suppose to be , but it never turns out that way , kinda frustration . you find means to solve the problem but its just out of your hands . you fall on your bed , given up , with the glow of helplessness lingering in your soul . it really stains your soul for the day

Then maybe you start to think that maybe you're not doing things right . so you do the trial and error . hmm . that's where i'm in so far .

Listen to Between the Trees - The way she feels . inspired by To Write Love On Her Arms . There is no excuse to resorting to self abuse

Its not like that now

2008-04-16T03:24:00.000-07:00

The temperature takes its toll on me . hah . second day of the week i missed school . this is my first time catching a cold . been sneezing since yesterday . i think the lemsip thingy helped a lil . yup , so that's one tip for you

How much burden is a child suppose to carry , has it become normal . how much longer

Adorabalistic

Throw it away

2008-04-14T07:44:00.000-07:00

Head under water , and you told me to breathe easy

There're many meant to be's i'm sure . this is not one of them . why is this bee flying towards you when there're other flowers to steal its sweetness from . it's frustrating

You don't want to let go , but you know it's the only solution . it'll be hard . you then start to question yourself if you've made the right decision . helium starts filling your balloon head , you can't talk because you're suffocating . you don't need to talk because you know you're gonna burst sooner or later

~ Make or Break ~

ITS OUT

2008-04-01T00:04:00.000-07:00

DONT DO IT

2008-03-15T04:33:00.000-07:00

It's hard . somehow its been awhile since i did this . hmmmmmmmm . move on ? i've lost my touch

Rossy , when are we hanging ?

HSM
troy : should i go for it ?

Wooot !

2008-03-07T23:29:00.000-08:00

Okay , okay . what's the worse thing it could happen to a harmless school trip to Singapore Discovery Center ? guess uh . . . no , not gettin kidnapped . no , not being attacked by robots . . .

Its LOSING YOUR PHONE

The very source of communication , actually , the only source of communication to the many people i don't meet from outside of school . tsk . all the priceless school photos of priceless candid expressions . all my miscellaneous notes habis

Thing is , it slipped right out of my pocket ! or somebody might have put his/her hand into my pocket without me noticing because i sure didn't left it anywhere . tsk . its like , gone , just like that .

Sigh . i don't want to get use to losing my belongings really

While i waste it away

2008-03-01T02:51:00.000-08:00

Like a scar , that takes a second to get inflicted , but weeks to heal . Can we afford to make a mistake ?

So there was a career convention at suntec city . And i was there right , with only one thing in mind , gettin' as much info as i can on mass comm . when it kinda hit me that what if for some crazy reason i don't get that course . i don't see myself doing anything else really . cmon , i'm hoping for a new found passion for back up . heheh

Becoming a doctor . hmm . good pay , physically unstrained . but quite boring no ? plus , i don't even take bio chem

Being lawyer can be a real handful . i like . but i mumble abit , it'll only irritate the judge . pay wise , should be okay , not fixed , but not little . be a lawyer in singapore ? uhhh . not exciting enough . tsk

Don't even get me started with soccer

One step at a time matt

Get up , get up

2008-02-22T00:13:00.000-08:00

Really lah , today fever , but nothing panadol cannot fix . soooo , no MC but this time the parent's letter will be true yeah ( hope teacher sees this )

Another day another star
How would you know if this is going too far
If it helps then okay
I have to know what i mean to say

Check out that ugly thing
But wait until you hear it sing
Make do with what you have
At the end of the day , it's all that's left

- In Rainbows so hypnotic -

Check out local band - www.myspace.com/thenervesg

How do you do

2008-02-18T19:13:00.000-08:00

Have you ever had something close to your grasp , and everytime you reach out to grab it , it moves one step back ? You're tempted to keep chasing it because you think you're so close , very close to catching it . While it drags your life away slowly but surely . When all you can do is hope and pray things will change . oh well . . frust

Condolences to iylia's friend . loving and losing is hard . but not moving on is the hardest . all thats left are memories to hold on to . your choice for it to be good or bad

move on

! HAPPY HAPPY !

2008-01-11T00:58:00.001-08:00

Wo de shen ri ? which literally means birth day . is there no other less direct word to describe it ? but it is used so freely so frequently that they might even forget that it is the day that you were conceived . like christmas , its not a present day , or a snow day , but CHRISTmas day .
christ's birthday . hmmmm

Today's like any other day . or not , im not sure . birthday's when you do something different , maybe special . and since i've been slacking and doing leisure every other day , i'll maybe study and be quiet in class today . hah . gossh that doesn't make any sense , but that was how it was today . and im home right after school today , the first time this week . special day it is

Usually i don't do this , but i've got to show my appreciation to those who remembered , and even msged me at the stroke of midnight .

Thank you :

Farah
Denise
Chloe
Eqah
Viv
Sarah
Pam
CM

This is so not like me to do this . hah . but thanks again guys . oh and wishing to do well for O's is not typical or boring . it might tune my future . heh

Rossy's missing though . where ever you are , you better be alright .

The card denise gave me was awesome . chloe gave me so reluctantly , have to teach her some manners . haha . eqah wanted to treat me but i rudely turned her down , so sorry again . farah's chocolating me up soon ! =D

Hoold on

2007-12-29T06:19:00.000-08:00

OH HOLD ON A MINUTE

I'm supposed to do this 3 days ago . . . . but obviously i didnt ! well janice requested this , i quote ' make sure to take lots and lots of pictures for me '

It was christmas and i spent it at my aunt's house for two whole days . which tired me out much , trying to keep up with my lil cousins

here goes :

Pretend barney was about to give you some love !

Yes , yes , gimme a tiger . raawr

Matthew : any monkey business and i'll find you . haha !

Out of fuel already . . .

Matthew still as active as ever . . . but not my sister

And this is Alexander , Matthew's older brother . trying to be mona lisa

And that's where all the present wrappings are gonna be left lying

Brief picture of the occasion

Grandad ! calming the kids down abit . tough job

Go on , just ask for his number . hahaha

Mira : eh ? was this here the whole time ? . hahaha

I was just jokin sis !

Gimme a tiger ! no ?

Okay , fine , lie there , but don't sleep yet !

Otherwise !

There you are xander . watcha doin ? ok fine , still not talkin to me

No ! don't you dare sleep !

2007-12-12T04:31:00.000-08:00

SUMMARY OF AWESOME MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE CONCERT

CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER

OUR TICKET TO HEAVEN . . OR HELL THAT IS

TOOK PICTURES TO REMIND HOW WE LOOK BEFORE THE CONCERT

YEAH , HMMM . . . HAHA

WE GOT IN , FINALLY . . ONLY TO WAIT LONGER . HENCE , THE PSP

GERARD SURPRISINGLY LOOKED AND SOUNDED GREAT

HE'S TALL . . . .

YES , YES

AFTER ALL THE SWEAT ABSORBED

DRYING OFF THE SWEAT . . .

RECUPERATING . . .

AFTERMATH OF CONCERT . . SHOES LOST AND FOUND MANIA

Tried to throw a punch

2007-12-06T05:55:00.000-08:00

TRIED TO THROW A PUNCH

Some things people just cannot take it in a mature manner . oh , but no , i'm definitely saying they're not immature . of course not , cmon , spilling insults a lil here and there for fun . pfft . thats fiiiiinnneeee lah . which'll make you go mad eventually and can be forced to stoop to their level . but let me warn you not to stay there long , it'll be the death of you . okay , by sharing it now is somehow pretty low for me , but it has to come out one way or another . so i won't go into details

Nostalgia fills your gut

2007-12-03T00:49:00.000-08:00

NOSTALGIA FILLS YOUR GUT

Whats the worse thing i could say , things are better if i stay . i don't know anymore

So tuesday night was birthday celebration for my uncle hasbullah , sofie's dad . Took the opportunity to sleep over with all little cousins except for alyssa , she has work . Which got extended from a day to a week . I got totally disconnected from my phone during that stay , due to the absence of the charger . Hence , i couldn't read any of my messages , and i haven't decided to be a snob rossy . and you're way too uptight

So yeah , i'm improving much on the cat allergy problem , that's one good thing . the other's that i thought couz has gotten . . . . wiser ? i think ? yeah ~

I didn't know poker cards could entertain a whole group of kids for a week . now i know

East Coast beach on saturday , cycled for hours straight . good opportunity for fat burning , according to couz at least . I sure didn't burn any , in fact i think i got fatter after all that late night eating . . . and no sleep . no chance to digest

Oh yeah ! making fun of the grudge and kuntilanak was a blast also . We concluded that all ghosts are good dancers , even with a broken ankle . Too bad sya sya couldn't make it , see what work can make a teenage kid miss out on . We could always use some more bulky fun =) But we all need the money don't we

ouh man . i'm posting like a chic now

If it takes away the pain

2007-11-18T04:27:00.000-08:00

IF IT TAKES AWAY THE PAIN . . . .

We'll find another way to dance . if you get the chance , you must dance , dance , dance

How can i think with this song stuck in my head

I just failed farah's friend test and i feel awful . but i stand my ground when i say her questions have indefinite answers . so try something less tricky farah ! How much do we know about our friends . they say girls like mysterious guys , well woooo . you'll be in for excitement , he could be a paedophile who eats his boogers while you kiss him . So should we be mysterious or not ? i know , i know , be yourself is the best . pfft

Nerds be themselves and they get cast aside . i think i'm a nerd inside . sometimes little games and toys can be addictive for me , books i have to read daily . all i need is specs . . . . . hmmm

Anyways , i thought i have to share this with you guys , especially girls . i was in the bus heading home , sitting idle on low trans island seats . it passed this particular bus stop when i saw it happened , barely . this lady , in her late 20s tying her hair . but what came out of her armpit was what humored me much . I thought it was an eye error whatnot , so i moved to the seat closer to the window and there it was . gees , i felt like shavers suddenly don't exist . whom i thank the inventor for the wonderful tool , so that i can avoid laughing and looking like a total psycho . it was bushy guys , trust me , like haven't shaved it in years . i think nobody else saw it though . most confusing 10 seconds ever

11th december -> MCR
14th december -> ptps outing
17th december -> N's results
25th december -> christmas

<- sexy <- Not right

Muster enough to face the unsure

2007-11-03T02:05:00.000-07:00

MUSTERING ENOUGH TO FACE THE UNCERTAIN

Recuperating from physical immobility . weighing down always at the worse possible timing . Like always before an event or such , fatigue fills you up . nah , maybe only happens to me . so yeah , go for it kid

Man United against Arsenal , hopefully not late while meetin at East Coast . T why why always bomb us . no sleep tonight i guess

cycling at night eh . helmets , elbow pads , knee pads , luminous vests , check .

trying hard to finish my dan brown bible deception point . they sure dont go straight to the point really . just the way i like it

Recalling bird callings

2007-11-02T00:15:00.000-07:00

RECALLING BIRD CALLINGS

Okay , emotions paralyzed due to nerves being suspended . trying to crawl back into the happenings , no matter how faint the made up is . dig and dig and dig

Okay , there was lolli , and we're walking around in this private estate , trying to find a place to eat . . . hmm . . then there were alot of up hills . i held lolli and we walked up together . half way through , there was something that restricted us . i insisted we ignore it and run . lolli wanted to do the right thing . . . gone . . .

Mmmm . . then . . . it was at least two days later . my second attempt to happiness . Looked for lolli and we went out again . in between panics of being chased , there were quiet times for talking . slow stroll , we ate at a restaraunt . still very cautious about who was gettin in at us

Very vague scenario in my head . but very sure what it meant .

I'm watching too much tv

Resentment , we get it

2007-10-25T07:29:00.000-07:00

RESENTMENT , WE GET IT

Another day , another soccer day , waiting for holiday , maybe i'll sit along the beach at bay , wondering what i shall say

1. Plan for holidays
2. Study during hols
3.Dont work at all during hols
4.Attempt to make contact with hilary duff during hols
5.Keep loving family and friends during hols

What ? what ? still sick ? aiya get a grip boy

Rumble rumble

2007-10-23T07:09:00.000-07:00

RUMBLE RUMBLE

This is who i really am inside ( in process of search )

Hmm . i dont think its any wrong to free yourself a little bit . you make mistakes so you can strike out the ones that are not you

Nothing to blog about these days . Except maybe that tag i got ->

Real mature . i too think im a kiddy kid still . But i surely cant be as boring as the tagger , because IT cant entertain anybody , hence the cowardly comment

Hari raya outing sounds fun . hmm

Home united trials sounds fun too . .

What to do what to do

For fun joy and laughter

2007-10-18T11:48:00.000-07:00

FOR FUN JOY AND LAUGHTER

School = 11am

Soccer = 3-6

Movie = 7-12

Didnt know syed had limits . so we tried to push him in the school pond . hah . everybody does it , right ?

I wonder when sya sya can be really committed to something

And Janice stop trying to rat me out

Congrats to hayley on making it big on mtv

What matters , you ignore it

2007-10-17T01:53:00.000-07:00

WHAT MATTERS YOU IGNORE IT

Ever heard the phrase 'become what you hate' It doesnt make much sense at first . because how can you be what you hate . i mean , since you hate it , of course you avoid being it . wrong ! hah . with sufficient inffluence , it is highly possible . Once again through experience , do not give in to anything . stick to what you know , what you believe in

*gulps down tea*

Do we have to give in to fit in all the time . its when you stand out that people notice you . in shows maybe its not good standing out , people will end up bullying you . well not in singapore . not in the place i live in at least .

*refill cup with water*

*drank water*

So today was the first day back to school since 1 whole week of self proclaimed holiday . attendance close to 15 i think . If not for soccer training , i'd rather stay home and do self study . maybe i'll go school on tuesday and thursday then . Olevels SS is hell diff from Nlevels gotta say . so ? eheh

*drank milk from milk carton*

Rossy thinks i'm sentimental . but being aware and appreciative , and sentimental different right .

pfft . i need a pail now

Evolution

2007-10-16T04:12:00.000-07:00

EVOLUTION

We try to improve ourselves everyday . but its hard to keep the improved version somewhere safe . its like , you sleep , you wake up , and its gone ! you start anew . it takes a certain skill that i've forgotten . was it sufficient sleep ? guess i'll find out soon

Soooo . .. you realise you're smarter , maybe your hormones magically made you smarter . but you leave it that way , and not knowing how to improve it . Wasted no ?! You gotta know what you lack and work harder to improve . why be ordinary when you can be extra-ordinary . okay lah , maybe some wanna live on a down low .

But its like a bird . if the new born knows he is meant to fly , he'll keep practising till he's perfect , so when mummy pushes him off the cliff , he'll be an eagle . no worries . but the ordinary ones are like , clueless , and when is pushed over , he tries to fly . and if he succeeds , he'll be impressed with himself and say ' woah , talented ah i ' . wthey

I sound preachy and always have . like i giiivee a daammnn

What im going through anyway

What do you do

2007-10-16T03:54:00.000-07:00

WHAT DO YOU DO

Usually people turn to their strengths to be their best . but these days , cant even find that in me . what do i need !? super jolly jelly ? pudding mood booster ? ergh ~

After exams , its hari raya , and fasting's over . if that doesnt sound like a total super relaxed holiday , i dont know what does . but i cant super relax , go school to sleep eat and learn . so that i dont have to struggle and cry during Olevels ( i dont mean literally cry )

looking for love people ? keep a dog ! =D

Summary HR

2007-10-14T23:21:00.001-07:00

Little Summary Of Hari Raya

2007-10-14T23:21:00.000-07:00

Tinsy Bit

2007-10-14T09:48:00.000-07:00

TINSY BIT

Hah . Hari Raya , despite much struggle , the aim to be on time for prayers was achieved . Boy was it inspirational . the rain though did drown the mood a little . but it didnt stop us from laughing at mamalong's ( eldest aunt ) house . And i dont mean laughing AT the house . like . . ..

you get what i mean

Grandpa looked as healthy as ever . Surprisingly this year , i didnt even look forward to the green greens . I just missed couzes

And still missin you nek . .

(pics be up soon)

Lies that lead you . . . . hmm

2007-10-12T19:38:00.000-07:00

LIES THAT LEAD YOU

The angels wave away the bad , and pay close attention to the little good you do

The devils ignore the good , and make sure you do the exact opposite

Which would you rather be made proud of

Hasn't it been always this obvious . yet temptation , lack of patience and self satisfaction lead you wrongly

Sit back , recollect and have fun . selamat hawi waya . . pfft

=D=D=D

Something to blog about

2007-07-21T01:26:00.000-07:00

Drifting along the all so familiar bridge , holds many emotions after a long hazy day . Today is one exception . The day has been long , the weather very weary . Maybe for too long

4B study camp 2007 ( physics )

Having no sense of urgency to the perception of needless practicals took me an hour before arrival . Going off to a very bad start of a badly sorted amazing physics race ( could have just done practical individually for more participation ) , it soon progressed as the fun did

2 Hours of break was spent kicking balls in the basketball court . so it was dark and invisible for some . The plan was to take a shower and assemble in the i-studio by 9.15 . And so we did . buying Macdonalds for some munch at the movie .

Distracted as most teens would be . We went out of the room and started exploring . ventured to the roof . but got miss tay really frustrated about gathering us back , having to take responsibility if anything happens to us . we were wondering and running around the school . like a kindergarten kid trapped in a teen's body .

There was birthday celebration for Shi Min . Yong Yang did this light sticks and formed a heart shaped for shi min . hah .

Much lecturing from Mr Siew for us ill treating Miss Tay . he sent us to the music room to catch sleep . but immediately got into a rugby game in the room . argh

Soooooo maaannnyyy thiiinnnggsss in just 2 days , 1night

naughtyiestestest

2007-05-31T06:33:00.000-07:00

Eating me up just . so delicious

tell him to take off his thong

2007-05-31T06:16:00.000-07:00

I am appalled ! Not by you my darlin , but by how hollow headed i have been

just made the list of things to do today

2007-05-31T05:59:00.000-07:00

Miscellaneous it may seem at one point . swallowing all of that in and i grow . mass of nothingness . yeah what so rhyme i may complain i might . moves executed to be backed by plans . to be drafted but ever so slowly have been drifted . too long now . too damned now

the best years of your life might start soon . but it damn sure isnt 16

living proof of misery

misery business

chance to get to know

2007-05-15T07:27:00.000-07:00

take away the importance
all you get is the useless of an incompetence
have it had to matter to ourselves before
change it to amend things therefore

If you know what you think you know now
maybe you can take the lead better
hold back you dare which you'll do
the cause have you to stray behind with this cow

oh sure

2007-04-23T15:55:00.000-07:00

Fell in love at the seaside

we don't need words for lyrics

2007-03-17T08:45:00.000-07:00

Another passing day . . . .

Wasting it away . . .

I dont mind spending a an hour or two . .

Because you know i love you . .

Heheh . i can rhyme too ( music and lyrics )

Falling Out With The BoyssSss

2007-03-09T08:18:00.000-08:00

Deafened in ear drums , doubled on happiness . I bet thats how it is for 90percent who managed to squeeze , squashed and ran to the fall out boy concert on saturday . 3rd march . hell it was crazy

It was a pit really . no , a war pit to be exact . Human beings fighting for their place closest to the stage as possible . Why ? to jump to four , we have to admit , more talented people . Butts were caressed , sweats were brushed against skins . But thats how a rock concert should be aint it

And lets just live up to that expectations of a rock concert . 'coz there were people who paid 75bucks to stand around the crowd pissing people who's trying to push get close
. like sheeshkebab dude . They were doing that 'you disgusts me' look when you're screaming to the voice of Patrick , or to the lick from pete . No offence , andy and joe were just as awesome .

May i quote from pete " Going to the concert for the right reasons , the music "

So just a little sticky note to 'those' , expect chaos from a concert like this . 'coz thats how the music is like duude . otherwise you could always try the Norah Jones and James Blunt shows . they'll have you serenaded while sittin . or lying down if you like

Oh yeah . . heheh . i cant believe the gil licked the pick that pete lucked . the sickest things teenagers do . riigght sya ? oh don'r gimme that look . you would have done it too

Rossy and Alyssa were great ! really really ecstatic

Next stop : Paramore . pls pls plsssss

when enough isnt cared

2006-12-18T02:58:00.000-08:00

Cousins cousins you are my cousins . We could have done it at a better time . but i guess i had fun =)

It's like , wooo . this is gonna happen to me , that and that and that . then you'll go , 'whatever , who cares' hahahaha

But you gotta know that there are limits couz ( you know which )

Why are you always so darn happy . now look what you made me do

2006-12-10T02:58:00.000-08:00

Ifffffff . I could be the way i used to , it'd be just perfect . Buuuuuttt . The changes , might come in handy . It can be learned from

One advice ; if you are such a bother , avoid contact . wait . . . . . maybe wait abit longer .

I need a remedy fer this hollow disease *

Can you taste the fear in her sweat

2006-12-04T03:54:00.000-08:00

Sorry farah , can't talk english now !@#$%^$#$%^&*

Republic Poly's soccer didn't turn out so bad . i thought it'd feel a little awkward , inviting others . But it was relaxed =)

Okay , i'm running outta things to blog about guys =/

I've got a bad feeling about this . .

2006-12-02T02:54:00.000-08:00

Some things we do , we are not proud of
Some things we do , we do not think

Not ever caring whether or not i am judged

Selfish , maybe
I did what i had to before i could burst

I'll take this as a lesson then
No next times

Soccer at RP tomorrow ~

These kids i grew up with

2006-11-29T07:42:00.000-08:00

It may be half an hour . but it was enough to know how much we've been missing out on each other . or her at least . hah ~ Thanks fer the picture tribute farah =) - though it looked gay -

Guess consistency is the best way to spend your holidays . at least that's what i'm finding out , so its a tip to you guys

N levels is not until next year

I'm trying not to keep saying that to myself =/

This circle never ends

2006-11-26T22:31:00.000-08:00

This is what dreams are made of - Hilary Duff

Well i had the most disturbing dream . What it had to meant i wouldn't really know . does it really happen the total opposite ? never happened to me .

Should it be a sign to something ? maybe it's pulling me into something . or , it's encouraging me to do something . how can you read one's dream ?

e.g What if one dreams of a sheep eating a wolf

e.g Or a donkey chewing on a gum

Once is okay , it happened once . odd ~

Buggin' me loads this morning . all this thinking is making me famished . haha . no rossy , im nothing like a pig . nowhere close . nah uh .

But she's so happy

Chosen one

2006-10-12T00:33:00.000-07:00

If you had to choose between , an outing with your friends and an outing with your family , which would you rather . Its a little bit of a delicate subject because a handful of kids finds it embarrassing to find themselves with a parent or whatnot .

Well i think its not really . family's always first coz they're the ones who you'd turn to in the end

But not all families are alike . cool ones , abusive , ignorant . the list is endless . i feel fortunate enough to have such a great mother .

Family is family . forgive and forget

Whatever am i saying ~~~

Is it true

2006-10-12T00:30:00.000-07:00

Is it true that if we suffer now , we'll definitely enjoy later . or enjoy now and suffer later i mean . i've seen kids who have been sssooo happy all the time and . i dont know . maybe its just me . or its just them . its hard to tell

So much for treating each day like its your last . hmm

Im neither excited nor nervous for the exam results really . but good luck to those Ns and Os survivors .

I love paramore =)

Noone to please

2006-10-04T21:58:00.000-07:00

5TH DAY OF EXAMS . 3 MORE TO GO

Day by day this phase is passing me
Minutes to hours i've lost my powers
Defying all righteousness
How much steeper can one go

Laying back far too deep
trying far too little
Line drawn inside this head
I would trade time with food anytime

The fear of repeating even crossed my mind . . . . ONCE

Wish me luck ~

Haha . terawih !!

Magic trick

2006-09-26T00:10:00.000-07:00

Living in a dream and its like slow motion .

English & Malay paper 1 ended today . oh . what is it you say ? how was it ? oh , simply greaat =_='

Fasting used to be a big matter for me ; like two years ago . now im all grown up . not eating for 12 hrs ? nooo sweeaaat . literally . like i cant do sweaty stuffz . makes me go all sweaty just thinking about it

I was gritting my teeth when gurmit was about to announce the winner of SI2 . I was imagining a scene where jonathan wins and all hell breaks lose . no offence though jonathan fans . and jonathan . ahah

Okay , here's my problem =

I cant concentrate studying in the afternoon because im too tired and weak . i cant stay up too late to study at night because i have to be fresh for the test the next day . how ~ force yourself lor matt . you're left with 5days

Thank you iza =) good luck with . . . . .

And where's my . . . . . .

I thought we stood concrete

2006-08-31T20:44:00.000-07:00

Is there no truth in beauty .

Im gonna share with you how i spent teachers' day eve

Many emotions were raised from the bottom of my ass today . Boredom being first , high , tickled , nervous , relieved , warm . hmm

Classmates were like doing their own stuff . ignore me only sia . had to walk to next class before getting high and entertaining myself . lalala . The concert wasnt supposed to be funny but . the jokes my friends cracked was . hahaha

Really , i was looking out for mardhiah and yuniza the whole time .

In the end had to leave with sya sya , i didnt wanna be late . so i didnt get to meet them this time . its not like i wanted it to happen . rossy . stop rubbing it in

Surprisingly i was hell nervous to meetin them . i almost choked as i was descending the stairs . Haaaa . everything just went back in place when i met them . alyssa felt abit odd though . hm .

I was really expecting to be alienated by the school . being transferred so far away . but no ! haha . a few teachers recognised me . fun lah . played soccer after that . marcus really did improved *nods head*

My daily doze of lemon tea

2006-08-26T02:33:00.000-07:00

It took me much thought before realizing that i've been living in the shadow of one . back then , now . and i sure hope not anymore . Much adjustments have to be done

But it will be . it has to

I want a perfect show . I wish i was special

GO MAN UTD ! sayonara

Serenade me under

2006-08-21T05:20:00.000-07:00

19th August

Everything came unplanned . just felt like it . Isnt it more exciting like that . heh . and boy was it fun

Though we went round and round the places we've been . i swear i didnt realise until you told me really . hmm

You can have it all if its not so much ~

I'm always on my own

2006-08-15T02:33:00.000-07:00

This is like dragging a bag of rice from town A to town Z . i'd rather hold a bowl of hot soup . pleases dont do this to me

It is torture , child abuse . help me , call the police . this is serious , no joke . no , no . im banging my head against the table now . It would seem fun and benificial at first

But by the end of the day . it all comes down to this . merciless task . stop stop .

I CANT TAKE THIS . MY KARANGAN

Dont mind me pls . im feeling abit off . okay lah , alot off kay . i really wanna improve malay though . oh yeah , cikgu scolded me for sleeping in class . wahliew . was sleepy really . like really really

Calm in a moment of silence

2006-08-11T03:33:00.000-07:00

Some way to spend the national day huh . not that it's anything to be all excited about . but the outing sure was supposedly a one-on-one . conversation of nothingness . some may put it as ; talking cock . would be fun i imagine . but oh well . all i have to say is that it was weird . hmmm

N levels have been launched *bzzzt* I hope those who are taking it , is well prepared . a frantic one burning the midnight oil is definitely gonna be overstressed in some way or another . will affect your performance . like my friend said i will quote " I cannot perform under pressure ah cher "

Good luck krystallyzzz =D

Yaaay . i have a date with mum and sister . click ! Love them to tiny pieces . eh ? Does that sound right ?

- I want a love that will last -
[ haha . you were really sweet ]

Hip city i just wanna shake shake shake the hip

2006-08-08T04:48:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling lame and random right now . i want to sink my teeth into skin i cant see through . .

Come to think of it , the day wasnt so bad . hehe . i have my friends , farah , roslina , gary , jia ying , sin yee ( surprise thanks ) thank you guys for makin me feel a lil better . ermm . eqah good job on making me gay . haha

Im okay at basketball actually !! haha

Tania's dance was totally awesome . really love , really lah . not joking . the drama was just as good . it kinda depicts my life , and how confusing it is sometimes . taking sides of dad or mum . kinda difficult at times . still love them both though . just as long as they stay healthy =)

ND tmr !! how are you gonna spend it people ?? lets see sparks fly

Going out to alyssa

2006-08-05T01:36:00.000-07:00

Im going on a strike sya . pls do something

Just a lil insecure

2006-08-03T02:14:00.000-07:00

7 ronaldo *losing touch*

8 kaka *maybe*

9 rooney *not really*

10 joe cole *pondering *

If dreams were made to be reached
would that mean it's okay to be breached ?

Discouraged and faithless
Have i made it , bareless

Torch your greatest possesion to light your way
To somewhere , somebody useful
do what you can dont waste a day
do your best today sincere and thoughtful

^.^

been awhile bitch

2006-07-27T06:25:00.000-07:00

You played yourself to death ~

I thought i'd drop you easily . but thought was not so deep

Riyas got freakin no.2 for cross country . he's really good . heh . happy fer em . yen weng surprised me .

sorry havent been blogging . alyssa havent changed my skin (blog)

And i havent the slightest mood sometimes . like right now . pissed with . . . .

Just want everyone out there to know , dont let emotions to get the better of you . take over your emotions , change forward , and everything would be in place . how you would like it

Optimum level =)

feel like im heading for a . . .

2006-07-15T05:04:00.000-07:00

All day , staring at the ceiling , making friends with shadows on my wall

I'm all hyped to go to eqah's match . like who wouldnt wanna see a bunch of girls playing soccer . was just pissed

Sorry you had to go alone because of me rossy . Didnt know you would go anyway

Im not a man of my words . hah . so you're judging me now

calling mum and sister over

2006-07-14T11:15:00.000-07:00

Those who caught superman ( not literally )

Who will save superman - The irony of superhero superman ~

Haaa . been awhile since we've been out . feels good exchanging stories with mum again . superman wasnt available at bugis . so orchard was our alternative

I found certain details really , funny . . Okay okay , why cant anyone tell that clark kent and superman are one and the same . arent they freakin identical ?? as if clark's nerdy glasses morphed his face into someone anonymous .

*puts on glasses* " heyy clark !! where is superman when you need one

*takes off glasses* " OMFG ?! clark is superman !!"

=_='

Lois' child , jason , is superman's boy of steel . seems like lois and superman have alot going on behind closed doors . poor richard A.K.A cyclops

Superman saves the planet earth from destruction . spiderman saves america , and so does batman . When spiderman is in trouble , superman will save em . when batman runs out of gadgets , spiderman will be the webslinging hero for batman .

Italy , france

2006-07-09T07:48:00.000-07:00

lay back , the show's almost over

I didnt know ignorance could be so bad . blinded so badly even . missing out on truly alot matt . alot

Cant believe i missed the match last night . argh . fell asleep . pathetic .

Catchin the match later though . i hope .

lets see . italy 3 france 2

Sittin waitin . . .

2006-07-08T10:08:00.000-07:00

School journal + Jazz = sleepy ( hypnotising really )

Gotta stay awake , 3rd and 4th placing in an hour's time . sleepyyy . . . Cmon portugal . but i kinda think germans are gonna conquer . hmmm

Singapore got into world cup finals because our government used our ceo , tax , and cpf money to bribe the fifa officials . Yay ! no more fair plays

AC milan and juventus gettin relegated . imagine that . eessh eesh eesh

I want a love that last

2006-07-08T09:57:00.000-07:00

Typical saturday outings . mellow , chatty , laughs

Well , wasnt exactly what happened just now . hmmm . due to carelessness , rossy almost lost her hp , and she triped and had a minor sprain . faeeqah was troubled . seemed wrong chatting like one cheery dude with the kind of vibes i was gettin from both of them . Hope eqah's okay

At least i got to meet tania =D

Wanna dance , do it with her . she's really good ~

I'll have a dance battle with you tania ! heh ^.^

Dont make me laugh .

2006-07-05T02:54:00.000-07:00

I almost let a minor thing like teachers ruin my day

they're all just little insensitve humans who expects respect they dont deserve . apologies to those who have been nothing but understanding to us students . but sometimes , all you need is one to spoil the whole impression . just like what she said

Si Wei was like ' angry right kena scold by mdm foo' It got me thinking fer awhile

I'm not angry actually , it's really far too stupid to be mad about it . i'll put on a sunshine smile infront of her and hand up my hws . but im sure as hell aint sincere

But the way she talked to me just now , i couldnt take it . ' i dont care about what your family background is . what you're going through ' I felt really really offended

She is judging my ability of self controlling my emotions in school apart from home . which is difficult sometimes . I feel like shit sometimes . But i always manage to seperate my emotions from home and school . she's pulling me down for something i didnt do . so i sat a lil faster . I DID GREET YOU . shit

If swinging my arm would make me feel better . i wouldnt go as steep as you

What does a boy gotta do to vent out his frustrations on someone . it doesnt feel right

Then came malay . if you're reading this cikgu , thanks fer smiling always . made me feel better somehow . sorry i havent purchased the B book yet . i odered from school's bookshop . I really have no flair in malay , sorry about that too . Cant get myself to indulge into anything relating to malay =/